Adverts, run, create, be special, lounge, watch movies, be a good friend, be perfect, my house needs to be sparkling clean and organized but I need to get all those things I already  got from the super market yesterday and I just need to have more and meditate and go to the gym be a complete gym bunny, be the most beautiful, calm and elegant from all, invent something that no one has ever invented before, write a book that will outstand any other book as a literary master piece….. There is more, much more to do, so little time, AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!  Drowning, suffocating,  the list of under achievements was endless and still here I was, wondering, playing at the computer when I could be doing something useful with my time. Definitely not a practical person, I admired those who did things, the ones who walked the walk and not just talked the talk. I've always been rich, not rich enough, beautiful, but not a beauty that would leave the others  speechless. I was just ordinary (at least in my head I was plain ordinary). You see? There was a time when I could have chosen but now I had already made her choices. I wanted this life safe and loved and simple but  I had no time, always rushing ...