I am so scared!!!
I don’t know if you remember the stone cottage I bought at auction and I was euphoric at the time but as reality sets I am so frightened… The plan is to move our home then finish the cottage and sell it again and it’s a great plan. We decided we needed to do things that would take us out of our comfort zone while we are not too old ( and isn’t life all about changes and facing your fears, get out of your comfort zone and live?).
Sometimes I feel like I am carrying the world and balancing between two gigantic buildings in New York on top of a thin line … AHHHAHHH
I have moved countries with a tiny baby for goodness sakes !!! I have moved out of my comfort zone the moment I was born and I have felt like this before, maybe it’s age or maybe it’s because I did my home with love and it’s difficult to just let go… The situation is not bad and I am privileged to own two beautiful homes at the moment, I am a lucky b…ee… if you know what I mean? But that is so scary …
We are all tired and now I am reminded about a nightmare I have sometimes .. We are couples and we have to dance until the last one standing wins but hey?! It’s not a nightmare but reality disguised in caricatures of enhanced realities. And in life, sometimes, while living it you think it’s hard but it does pass and on tomorrow’s yesterday this memory will be a happy memory since I will have faced my fears already and will look for more challenges. The moment we stop challenging our comfort zone is the day we die and so that’s where I am in life at the moment.
Have a nice week and think about it… We build a perfect life and get comfortable, where we go from there it’s what distinguish us as eternal beauties or statues.
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mens sana in corpore sano
“Mujeres al borde de un ataque de nervios” from Almodovar is more like me at this moment in time. I’m near the wrong side of my thirties and haven’t been exercising for a few months for I figured that paying for gym was healthy enough right? I have found my long lost love for marshmallows in the microwave and COKE not the ZERO COKE but the red sugary one. I guess I could blame it on anxiety but the truth is that I have been too lazy to contemplate exercise. I am back then, Monday I went to a step class into which I fell on my bottom but got up with all the grace I could master and continued to a body pump class, funny enough I have spent two days resembling a limping robot when I walk. The lactic acid in my muscles did not allow me to go down the stairs without the noises to accompany from “huu ouch f… han ouchy” or just a scream of pain much less up the stairs. By the end of day yesterday my husband and daughter were both on the verge of “HARAKIRY”. Needless to say I went to the gym today and did double the weights from Monday and ran. Summer will come and no, I do not intend to become a triathlon champion but I intend to feel good inside this lovely temple of mine for I have to live with it. I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and be really skinny blaming on my super fast metabolism and say things like “I have always tried to gain weight but it is impossible” or “I never exercised and I am a chocaholic but my weight is always the same. I am just lucky” but instead I am human and normal so I can say that if my body is in good shape is thanks to hard work and starvation denial mode.
My compulsive behaviour unfortunately won’t allow me to do things in equilibrium so now I am determined to gym it and I will do it until I get into some other kind of trip.
Note to self or MOTO of the season is
mens sana in corpore sano
The phrase comes from Satire X of the Roman poet Juvenal (10.356). It is the first in a list of what is desirable in life:
|English translation:You should pray for a healthy mind in a healthy body. Ask for a stout heart that has no fear of death, and deems length of days the least of Nature’s gifts that can endure any kind of toil, that knows neither wrath nor desire and thinks the woes and hard labors of Hercules better than the loves and banquets and downy cushions of Sardanapalus. What I commend to you, you can give to yourself; For assuredly, the only road to a life of peace is virtue.
|In original Latin:orandum est ut sit mens sana in corpore sano. fortem posce animum mortis terrore carentem, qui spatium vitae extremum inter munera ponat naturae, qui ferre queat quoscum que labores, nesciat irasci, cupiat nihil et potiores Herculis aerumnas credat saevosque labores et venere et cenis et pluma Sardanapalli. monstro quod ipse tibi possis dare; semita certe tranquillae per virtutem patet unica vitae. —Roman poet Juvenal (10.356-64)