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Dystopian theories or reality?

Being an only child you get used to moments of complete introspection and sometimes complete loneliness plus that combined with my total lack of abilities to any sort of sports led me to make an extreme effort on the social behaviour bordering my instincts to become tainted for I remember feeling so different in my tastes, I remember trying really hard to pretend to be normal and slightly dumb because I needed to fit in and maybe I tried so hard I lost my weirdness that made me so UNIQUE , that was the source of all my light. I loved reading good and intelligent books for days, watching cult movies and the reality is that … -OH GOD ALMIGHTY- it dawned on me again another epiphany and I was shocked with realizing that all those Science fiction books and movies based on a different reality usually set on the future were reality. We are ZOMBIES completely brainwashed to follow the fashion, work to spend our money in Shit We do not need and not question anything. It must be difficult to maintain order of wild free thinking beasts like us mortal defective Human beings. So the plan for the order is We all look the same, weight the same, better if We do it on a sub nutrition kind of way for We are destroying trees and you know? Ecosystem and all that so the resources once abundant were now not enough. We don’t read  good books anymore, they are available for purchase but only very few still read them, people like to take those distasteful tablets that lack the beauty and comforting company a book gives because of course the tablets a smaller and easy to carry around but I thought the good thing was to spend time inside that amazing world that is a book. There is magic in the pages of a well worn book and without it the word book doesn’t exist anymore. So WeImage don’t read books not because they are not available anymore but because our life style became as fast as the speed of our broadband connection- Who needs to study these days or call an specialist when you can do it all by yourself and learn it at two in the morning if desired so?  With one advantage, saving money.  We are addicted, junkies of technology and virtual realities, I don’t need to be nice to any person, I have my friends from facebook  that I don’t see for how long? 15 or 25 years and then I finally wake up and scold myself again for I AM LATE AGAIN- need to go to my “semi- alive” reality.

Of life in time

Adverts, run, create, be special, lounge, watch movies, be a good friend, be perfect, my house needs to be sparkling clean and organized but I need to get all those things I already  got from the super market yesterday and I just need to have more and meditate and go to the gym be a complete gym bunny, be the most beautiful, calm and elegant from all, invent something that no one has ever invented before, write a book that will outstand any other book as a literary master piece….. There is more, much more to do, so little time, AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!  Drowning, suffocating,  the list of under achievements was endless and still here I was, wondering, playing at the computer when I could be doing something useful with my time. Definitely not a practical person, I admired those who did things, the ones who walked the walk and not just talked the talk. I've always been rich, not rich enough, beautiful, but not a beauty that would leave the others  speechless. I was just ordinary (at least in my head I was plain ordinary). You see? There was a time when I could have chosen but now I had already made her choices. I wanted this life safe and loved and simple but  I had no time, always rushing ...Image